Here we go

We received our clinical assignments for the first five weeks. I am in post-partum for the first two days, then labor and delivery, then the nursery, and back to labor and delivery for another day. The last few weeks will either be picked by me, or assigned by my instructor.

Our orientation to the hospital is Saturday. I’m really excited about this class. My instructor is the real deal. She has a laid back personality (despite her reputation, which I suspect originated with less than stellar former students), but she expects us to know our sh*t. It’s been a while since I’ve been challenged, so this should be interesting. The only thing that will suck is the 50 minute drive at 0500. Of course, it’s totally my fault. Brian told me not to change my life to be with him.

I am a little worried about my usual week seven breakdown, but this time JC has my back, and his support may be all I need to get through the languor. What synchronicity! Days after I was lamenting about never having that one, truly epic love, JC comes into my life, and he loves me so completely that it should be suffocating and even a little creepy, but instead is liberating.

Just kidding. Not about the love. He loves me all right, and I love him. I love him more than I thought I was capable. But synchronicity? More like apophenia. Not that I am complaining. I am a huge fan of random coincidences. Sometimes I like to think of all the little things that had to happen for JC and I to find each other like we did. I think of how complicated our lives are, how neither of were “ready” for a relationship, yet still we looked for someone. I think of how many little choices that brought us together could have steered us apart.

A friend asked my yesterday what JC is like. All I could think to say is “perfect.”

“That isn’t very descriptive.”

But what else could I say? If I elaborated, she would only say, or at least think: “What is so perfect about that?” It’s funny, because I would go on and on about Brian, almost as if I was trying to convince myself as well as my audience that he was something special.